Who is this man?

I see the king seated on the throne. He is all I see. I can't keep my focus on anything else, I don't even try. I don't even want to try. He is just so beautiful. My eyes look from the crown of gold on top his head, Down to his eyes. When our eyes meet, I feel like he can see inside me. Deep down into my very soul. He knows every thought I've ever had. Every dream I've ever dreamt. Every pain I've ever felt. He knows everything there is to know about me. His eyes speak kindness and understanding. I feel like I've known them my whole life. It's hard for me to take my eyes from his, but when I do, I continue to his chest. I can see the heart beating behind it. It's breaking but at the same time its complete. I listen to the rythm as it fills my ears. It is the most calming sound I have ever heard. I feel so safe in this place, and yet I am afraid. I feel so unworthy to be standing here. Reverance floods over me as I kneel in front of him. On my knees, I can clearly see something I missed before; his hands. The hands themselves look like they could fight anything, defend anyone, do everything. But my attention is drawn to the holes. I can see the dried blood around the edges. I start to cry as I realise the afflictions involved. I bow my head to the ground as I feel like I can not get any lower. I don't deserve to be here. I'm the one that put those holes there. I'm guilty and he is the judge. But as I start to gasp for air, those hands reach out and pick up my face. He dries the tears and looks me in my eyes. The next thing he says will change my life forever. "I love you."

Scripture when I have no words.

When I sat down to write today, I typed a lot of nothings and erased them everytime. I'm to the point right now, where I have so much to say. But I just cannot find the words.

"But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ. For he himself is our peace."
Ephesians 2:13

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
2 Corinthians 12:9

"The peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Philipians 4:7

"I can do all things through him who strengthens me."
Philipians 4:13

"For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control."
2 Timothy 1:7

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. Be sober-minded, be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen and establish you."
1 Peter 5:6

"The lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count as slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance."
2 Peter 3:9

"God is light, and in him is no darkness at all."
1 John 1:5

"By this we shall know that we are of the truth and reassure our heart before him; for whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and he knows everything."
1 John 3:19

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out all fear."
1 John 4:18

"He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning nor crying nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away. And he who was seated on the throne said, Behold, I am making all things new."
Revelation 21:4

Just do it.

I think we need to ask ourselves; What are we doing to be the church? We can't just come to a church building every sunday morning and leave an hour and a half later unchanged, unmoved. Not only do we attend church, but we ARE the church. The church is a group of people who are on fire and dedicated to doing Gods work. We need to be his hands and help the poor. We need to be his feet and go tell people the good news. We need to be his ears and listen to those who no one listens to. We need to be his eyes and look for opportunity to reach out to the community around us. We need to have a heart like the Fathers. Lord, Break our hearts for what breaks yours. We have such a huge responsibility as believers to impact our world! Its up to us! We can't just sit here and idle while the world is dying. Christ gave us life. He gives us freedom! We can't keep this a secret, its too awesome. Let's channel our faith into works. James 2:14 says, "What good is it, my brothers, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can that faith save him? If a brother or sister is poorly clothed and lacking in daily food, and one of you says to them, "Go in peace, be warmed and filled," without giving them the things needed for the body, what good is that? So also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead." This is so harsh, but so true!! Don't be dead to the kingdom. I can't stress this enough people! This is what we are here on earth to do. So... Let's do it...

Timing.

"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven." Ecclesiastes 3:1
I've been thinking alot in the past little while about God's timing. Sometimes it seems to me, so frustrating. Asking God the hard questions like; Why? Why didn't you intervene? Why is this taking so long? Why must I wait? Why don't you do something?! To us humans it doesn't always make sense, and it can be so exhausting not fully understanding the Creator of the universe. But that's exactly it. He is the creator of the universe and who are we? What have we created? Certainly nothing like the heaven's and the earth. Nevertheless I find some comfort in the fact that we cannot understand him. What kind of God would be so simple as to have a human to understand him in all his wonder and complexity? We serve a God who is so vast and amazing that we phyically and mentally cannot comprehend. And as to his timing, He's got it under control. Who am I to say God doesn't have the timing right? The difference between a home run and a foul ball is timing.
"He has made everything beautiful in its time." Ecclesiastes 3:11

The simple truth.

I have fallen in love. It's the kinda, can't eat, can't sleep, kinda, I'm crazy about you; love. He is all I can think about. When I wake up he is on my mind. When I go to sleep he's there in my thoughts. He is honestly the most amazing being I've ever encountered. He is Jesus, my Lord, Saviour, Healer and Redeemer. So often I take for granted how amazing his love really is for us, and the oh so forgotten yet very important, history shaking event that is a tangible showing of the Fathers love; the cross. It's something I need to be reminded about everyday. The holes in his hands and feet is what saved my life. It should have been me up there on that cross. I deserve every minute of that pain. It should have been me. But he loved me so much that he was willing to die. He loves us so much. It is beyond my human understanding how he loves me to that capacity. When all I am is a nothing, a no one, worthless really. But he gives me worth. He gives me purpose. It blows my mind, that the creator of the galaxies could love me. His love is relentless. Recieving love like that just makes me want to collapse in a flutter of giddy giggles. People do crazy things for love. His love makes me want to do crazy things. His love gives me strength. It makes me bold. His love transforms me into everything that I wish to be.