Who am I?

I'm going to be honest here, I'm a sinner. I'm Peter when I deny Christ. I'm Judas when I betray Jesus. I'm Eve when I disobey God. I'm such a failure on my own. I mess up everyday. I have a hard time understanding why Jesus died for someone like me. How could someone so Holy and Almighty love something so small, so insignificant? Somedays, Alot of days... I ignore God, I don't listen when he speaks, I do what I want, I'm selfish and I don't act like a disciple. But he loves me anyways!! Its crazy. We serve a great God. I really relate to the story in Hosea 2; "She decked herself with rings and jewelry, and went after her lovers, but me she forgot, declares the LORD. Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her."I feel like that girl, who fills her life with everything but Christ, but despite of my actions, He loves me, he allures me and speaks tenderly to me to bring me back to him time and time again. The only thing that scares me is the "desert". I wonder what desert he will lead me into...

The start.

I'm not a great writter. Im not great with words. My grammar isn't always correct, but this blog isn't about that. This is a place where I am going to write from my heart. From the very core of who I am. I don't care who reads it, or who doesn't read it. This is a diary of sorts, to document my journey. The road I'm taking to get closer to the one who I call Father. It will be good for me to go back and read where I was, how far I've come, and how I've grown. I might not update it everyday or I could update it more than once a day... when the inspiration comes.